Eddy: Why do you have to be so sad?
Me: I DON’T KNOW.
Eddy: You don’t have to be.
TRUTH. Honestly, I know it’s a CHOICE. I always know it’s a choice… yet I keep choosing wrong! Or is it even wrong? Shouldn’t it be right to allow myself to feel these emotions so I can let them pass? It’s getting tiring though. I know it’s all a cycle, but the cycle is so painful… What am I even looking for? I know the good mood never lasts… so I can’t help but keep feeling like maintenance on this human form is just so tiresome… AND IT KEEPS GOING. There’s no way out.
But technically there is… that choice. The patterns of the mind are so damn strong. Stop choosing to be miserable.
