When I look out my window Many sights to see And when I look in my window So many different people to be That is strange So strange
You’ve got to pick up every stitch You’ve got to pick up every stitch You’ve got to pick up every stitch Mmm-hmm, must be the season of the witch Must be the season of the witch, yeah Must be the season of the witch
When I look over my shoulder What do you think I see? Some other cat lookin’ over His shoulder at me And he’s strange Sure is strange
You’ve got to pick up every stitch You’ve got to pick up every stitch, yeah Beatnicks are out to make it rich Oh no, must be the season of the witch Must be the season of the witch, yeah Must be the season of the witch
You’ve got to pick up every stitch The rabbits runnin’ in the ditch Beatnicks out to make it rich Oh no, must be the season of the witch Must be the season of the witch Must be the season of the witch Where’d I go
When I look out my window What do you think I see And when I look in my window So many different people to be It’s strange Sure is strange
You’ve got to pick up every stitch You’ve got to pick up every stitch The rabbits runnin’ in the ditch Oh no, must be the season of the witch Must be the season of the witch, yeah Must be the season of the witch Where’d I go Where’d I go
Last week I prematurely went back on Instagram and talked to way too many people which sent me into mania. Sleep schedule got fucked, lost my voice, got really sick, feel like I’m backsliding. I’ve never been able to handle the internet and I keep fooling myself into thinking I can.
Now I can’t find my phone and Eddy won’t let me know if he took it or not and I need it tomorrow for this class I’m gonna be helping facilitate. Now I’m hyperfixating because I don’t know if he has it or not and he keeps giving me cryptic answers. I can feel my energy going toward all this hatred and tension that really is absolutely pointless. He says I’m like a crack addict. Fuck technology. Seriously. As I sit here and write a blog post. Lol it really does suck to be a human in this modern age… contradictions everywhere…
This playlist helps. Lol it really is a convoluted mess of different types of songs, so it’s quite a journey to set it to shuffle and experience the roller coaster of clashing music. It’s such a great representation of my moods it always makes me laugh out loud.
SIDE NOTE: I meant to post about this earlier but lost track of time! I’m gonna be helping facilitate this Resilient: Women, Money and Soul class at Shakti Feminine University starting TOMORROW at 9am PST/ 12pm EST. If you’re interested, there’s still time to register here!!
Last month I took their Cultivating Currencies course and it seriously changed my life, helping me shift my values, examine money and scarcity stories programmed into me by society and ancestry, and cultivate the feeling of “enoughness” in a culture that teaches us we’re never enough. This will be a deeper dive into those concepts, offering tools to take back personal power while in sacred space with women 🙂 Women’s circles have seriously been the most beneficial thing to my mental health these past 2 years… I find that I learn the most when connecting to others and hearing their stories. It’s always such a great reminder that everyone is always going through such similar things and that none of us are ever alone.
Here’s a drawing I did during that class to represent how I was feeling about money at the time.
I call it “Hungry Ghost” because… that’s what America has taught us to be. Nothing is ever enough… we’re constantly marketed to, told that we’re broken and we need to buy something to fix ourselves. But really, we already have everything we need! It’s really great to have found this school and these classes geared toward reversing that deep programming ;_; If any of this resonates with you, click here for more info!
I had such a profound experience in the class that they offered me a the facilitator role of “Tech Queen” for this Resilience course 😀 I am BEYOND excited because all of this is seems to be divine timing!
Why am I here again? Oh yeah I was complaining about technology and here I am being tech queen for this class xD See? Contradictions everywhere. Definitely feel better now though 🙂 It can be so simple! Learning more and more about what I need for self care everyday.
I woke up this morning not remembering my specific dreams, but with the word “PARTICIPATE” repeating in my head. I’ve been so on and off with participating my whole adult life — makes sense with so many ups and downs — but I feel like it’s time for me to engage with the world in the way I’ve always been meant to.
But I know it won’t be easy, and I have to be more vigilant about my patterns. I went running with Han in the park this morning, the weather is beautiful! And it made me think it would be nice to write down a list of what makes me feel better. A note to my future self — when it gets bad, do one of these things.
Go to the park – meditate, read, nap, whatever. It’s the closest nature to you! Remember that, according to a study by the UK government (read about it here), it’s essential to our health to be in nature at least 2 hours a week.
Play with Han – Run around in the house with him a bit
Read (something fun)
Meditate — Kirtan Kriya is one that always makes you feel better
Journal
I wanna keep this list short and sweet. Remember this is medicine for your soul. Take this shit seriously so you can function in the world.
To make it even easier for you, here are links!
Laboratorium Piesni Close your eyes and connect with your soul…
Mantra Chattr Chakkr Varti – The mantra for change – It removes feeling of anxiety, depression and phobias, leaving in its place courage and victory.
Meditate Sa Ta Na Ma – Studies have shown that doing this meditation increases brain activity, eases depression and mood swings, balances right and left brain, improves memory function and more! Click here to read about it and here for instructions on how to do it if you’re interested 🙂 It looks like a lot, but if you just turn on this song, close your eyes and move your fingers along, you get into the swing of it real fast.
Bipolar Beastie 